don't know why?

I am living in a crowded place,

Standing here, I heard a chaotic sound.

Yeah, there are lot of people here, but I feel empty..

I don't know why?

I stood contemplating myself, in front of the mirror.

I had smile, but I am not happy.

I don't know why?

I wore good clothes and nice accessories,

People flattered the way I dress up, I thank them and get happy.

But I am not "that" happy.

I don't know why?

Boyfriend and I talking on the phone like usual,

he promised to give me a present once he came here, end of this month

and brought me to shopping new handbag and shoes,

But, I wasn't 'that' happy.

I don't know why?

I lost in my own world and crying deep down in my heart,

because, I feel so scared of this world.

the 'hate' they have, the 'big love' we have that make us forget and forgive,

the 'grudge' everyone has, could destroy a big skyscraper building,

and, what about the 'selfish-ness' that we have?

It could kill ourself, slowly.

Decaying the root that we've planted long time ago.

We did not realize, because we are human.

Imperfect, but trying so hard to deny the fact.

I feel empty, lost and sad.

Because life is too difficult,for a small girl like me.