If i have a lot of money right now...

During my recent interview with one of a well know bank in Malaysia, which stands boldly with red and green colours in which obviously, they gave us a lot of questions. Starting from written questions to oral which is presentation and tonnes of situational questions related to the position that I am applying for. One of the question I can remember is, What would you do if you have RM 1 Million with you now? Of course I answered this question carefully by not showing my real skin at all.  But, if you ask me now, then my answer would be 50% different from what I had given them on last Saturday. 

Honestly, If i have RM 1 Million right now, the first thing I would do is to settle all my debts including Mara loan, PTPTN, my debts to my sister, my brother and also from him. Secondly, I will surely give back to both of my parents at least 20k each. After i finish with these two things, I will surely bought a 4 house rooms for my family at my hometown and I will bring my three little brother go on a shopping spree to get whatever they want and put a minimum of 5k each to their saving account. Then, I will surely repay Kamil by giving him 50 % of the our wedding budget for being the most kind-est person and best friend I ever had in this world.  I don't know how much RM 1 Million would be, but I'm pretty sure with everything that I want to do above it will still be a lot left in my hands isn't it? I will later bought myself a car which is suit me just nicely maybe just a Honda Jazz Hybrid? Hahahaha :D Then i will donate to the orphanage and Masjid and open up my own restaurant or boutique. That's it. 

A simple person I am, and my dreams revolved around my family and Kamil. Maybe some of you already had all these things done, even without that RM 1 Million that I don't have it pun. But, yeahh.. i have different life. I want to be someone in my family that can give something to them and I want to be a girlfriend that Kamil can get help from. Because all this while, it's always me who asked help and kena tolong by him. I don't want to be like that anymore... This might be the right song to describe how i feel now.. 

                                          

Menanti sebuah Jawapan...

 I'm waiting for an answer. It is veryy tiring, because I can't sleep properly for two days and my heartbeat and my brain moves only to think about that particular thing... 

One step closer

I'm still alive and kickin. Just a bit more focusing on to real life and erm..work. Yes, i am officially working now even if it is not the dream job I always wanted to stick with forever in my life.. but yeah, at least i got paid for my sweats ! And, the most interesting part is I enjoyed every single moments of it. I laughed most of the times while working on my work. Buttttt, still it doesn't satisfy me financially. Sad Sad Sad ! Soo, yeahh. I'm still looking for another job which is financially stable for me. Hoping that I could get one as soon as possible. 

On the other note, Graduation is coming soooonnnn !! January 6th, and boy I am superrr exciteddd even though I won't get call for chancellor awards or anything synonyms to that, but at least I got in for the first session which onlyy entitled for 3 pointer students, and Alhamdulillah I managed to maintain my CGPA with 3.*** up until my last semester. The best part of my graduation is, I can finally meet my parents after my last time meeting them on last raya. Actually I miss my parents and family so much nowww, with the facts that my dad went for Umrah today and most of us in the family were unable to sent him off at the LCCT. Only my sister can send my dad at the airport today, because we want to save money for my graduation, my sister is working and she can't simply take leave and mom has to look after for my younger brothers and I'm stranded here in the northern Malaysia and my first brother in the south. Well, everyone in the family is working on something and we understand each other. I'm hoping that my dad can call us as soon as he can. I miss him already, and I wish everything goes well on him...

Swan River Daisy

I'm not gonna start my entry with normal opening on how long I don't post anything here and stuff. I know no one cares and let me just blog whenever I feel like to write or share? 

I am 98% done with my undergrad study. Finished with internship and the last result of three and half years studying, InshaAllah i'll attend the next graduation on my university on January perhaps? But I hope the graduation is later than February because I have a lot of things left unsettled. I started working after a month of being penganggur and I know this is not the job that I wanted and I will settle down with the rest of my life. I'm not going to stop finding the right most probably in the public sector and being GOVERNMENT SERVANT. I really hope I can do something big with my life and help my family soon, but yeah I can't expect too much now. Be grateful, remember Allah knows best. 

Currently, I'm living in the world/land that i've never thought I would go. This is far from my hometown and where my heart is, but then again... this is the only place I can find MY LIFE. Hence, let me wish all is well for a new journey of struggle, a new life that not yet started and a spirit that won't die. For Family, Love and a better life dunia wal akhirat... inshaAllah.