Here and there

Hai everyone !

I am alone now, as everyone in my house has already started their journey to 'The Laa Laa Land'. Being penganggur (while waiting for my internship start) like me, of course I don't mind of sleeping late because i can sleep as much as I want in the morning (sampai petang pun boleh!). Anyway, my life currently so far so good. My study has come to its end, only left with three months internship before I can graduated in December,2012... In sha Allah. My health? I have endure 2 weeks of demam + selsema and coughing 2 weeks before leaving for Johor Bharu on midst June and yeah I am grateful that all the sickness and illness I've gone through dah habis. So I am literally sihat ! 

Financially, i can say so-so je, why? Because I can't stop dreaming of buying this and that. How? After i dapat one top, I baru perasan I have no nice shoes to pair with that top. And after that, takde bag pulak.. HAHAHA and the circles goes to my skincare products and I can say everything in me. Dah lah student, tak sedar diri pulak asyik nak shopping... macamane ni? Dah lah nowadays, we have a lot of blogshops online yang jual all the nicest bajus, kasut, tudung, baju kurung and whatnots.. you just have to have money in your account je and you can get anything from your bed even though you tak mandi lagi. Thepoplook and Fashionvalet are among those yang jual baju bagus bagus. So, I can say that you won't mind if your account bank kurang because you'll get something nice in return. For handbag, I can say I dah quite berjimat because sepanjang 2012 i baru beli 2 je.. hehe. Bagus kan? The reason is because Mr.BF keep on nagging me saying that I've had enough of handbags dah and keep telling me that I'm a student, i shouldn't spent much on handbags but books bla bla bla.. hehe. So, I insaf sikit lah... :D The first bag I beli from MANGO earlier this year atau end of last year for everyday use which only cost me RM100++ and the second one I bought earlier last month from Charles & Keith butttt, it was a present from Mr.Boyfriend for my internship so it is kind of a good luck present kan boyfriend? Kasut pun tak banyak dah beli now, sebab betul betul nak taubat..hehe. Just ada beli 4 pasang from Vincci and Charles & Keith for internship jugak.. hehe :D baik kan? Cumaaaaa, sekarang i sukaaa sangattt beli baju kurung atau traditional wears and tops....hehe. Every month kenaaa beli sebab mesti ada kawan kawan nak kahwin, tunang, ada majlis kat Uni and so on. So, I can say that I am financially not stable because i spent what I have.. hehe :D Student lah katakannn :D 

Relationship with him? Alhamdulillah, the 'stage' that i've talk about on my previous post went well, or beyond expectation I might say :D Kamil and I has become more stronger and more mature in our relationship. We hardly fight, like we used to and even of we do it is calmer than before. We give each other time to think and talk about it later. I think age and the point that we have known each other for quite some time is one of the factor contributing to this happiness. I am blessed and still never stop praying for Allah's blessing and hidayah.. if he is the one then, let him be the one. We have bigger plan now :) And, I must give credit to him for being able to stay during the Tsunami that i brought into his life, the drought I let him endure and everything I did. No other men can stand my craziness I guarantee. 

Family? the facts that everyone in my family are living healthily and loving each other like we have now is one of Allah's rezeki which is given to me. Dad and mom still loving each other and make jokes about each other is something I am really grateful for. Listening to my three little brother laughing on the phone also another present that I won't trade for anything else in this world... with the successful engagement of my first brother held earlier last month was also happiness to everyone in the family. And, here's the pictures of abang dot E-day which was taken in Johor..

the doorgifts

my helpers to which their kindness in helping me can't be repay.. 

nanti your majlis tunang or kahwin I'll turun padang okay?

the comel mommy, daddy and sissy :)

before heading to Seelong? see my brother's face.. full of ketakutan.. 

In the car, on our way there he told me

"Nang, sejuk nya perut ku..."

I tak layan at all :)

Two camera women, no official photographer because it is really a small-family event.

the future in laws yang sehati sejiwa.

Actually, mom's tudung (outer) was bought by me because our initial plan

was to wear all pink or pink is our theme colour. But, later on mommy said 

"No need tema temalah.. hentam sajaa !"

hence, the colorful people, thank god the hantarans was done earlier by me and my helpers :)

:)

'the future bride and groom'

The hantarans, my air tangan :) From our side Pink and Black

 and from their side is pink and white 

Settled ! 

Abang is tunang orang noww :)

It's 2;05am now, gotta sleep now. See you in m next post :)

Dugong darat

taken by him, edited by me :p

I miss her....

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:'(

Your hate ain't gonna let me down.

Few days back, there's issue about me and my boyfriend that we never knew others (people we don't close to) , quite busy discussing it. Irony, we give no care to them, and they really care about us and this causes few incident and a gallon of tears from me. And, to make everything become just right, he just say few things like ;

(1) They never knew us baby, they can keep on talking for how long they want. But the truth, let us just knew it. When I am having problems with this and that, you are the only one there for me. And, so do I want to do the same thing for you, but they just so stupid to care too much about you and me.

(2) You cannot cry Sayang, you know right a princess doesn't always cry.. isn't it?

(3) So, you are so glamour in college huh baby? That's why I get soo many 'animal' , 'actresses', 'cute babies' and few 'sexy girl' request in FB? HAHAHAHA :)

(4) and few mores sarcasm yet funny to me that I believe, this 'rain' im having won't last.

not only boyfriend, but few friends like ida, lydia , huda and saskia did something (literally) , that makes me feel better. Thank you dearies :) 

Yeah, if somebody happened to read my blog during your bad times, trust me this shit 'rain' ain't gonna last :) 

Never degrade another man in order to upgrade yourself. Hate depreciates your value, not theirs.

What i think #1

Wan Mohd Kamil,

Remember, I love you more than anyone else can love you. Don't blame me if one day i'll walk away and never turn back. This is really what I meant now ):

Oh ya, after celebrating sister's birthday, the next morning went on date with boyfriend !!! We had very limited time for dating these few months. He is rushing to settle everything to make sure no problems during their YES project launched. That's why la, I am left here :( 

Dating pun sebulan sekali, sehari je.. huhuhu :( dlm masa tu gak lah nak tgk movie bersama, nak lunch apa semua bersama, pas tu ada gak lah keje keje penting perlu kiteorang settlekan bersama, huhuuhuhu. Sabar je lah kan? So, during that day we already decided to have lunch at tempat yg menjadi pujaan hati kiteorang somewehere in kepong. Dekat depan masjid apetah, i forgot ! Makanan memang best, super-kampung and delicious. Actually, I'm craving for kerabu mangga, but unfortunately the time we arrived there from Shah Alam, kerabu mangga dah habis di serang orang ramai. So, tak dapek den nak nolong, kata boyfriend I. I pun redha je lah tak makan kerabu mangga, terus balas dendam makan banyak2 ambik lauk sampai penuh pinggan and bile nampak asam pedas ikan pari, dah rasa bersalah dah. Sebab time tu nasik and lauk kat pinggan dah penuh. Terus g duduk jumpe boyfriend, buat - buat muke kesian. Sebenarnye, I nak ambik lagi Ikan pari masak Asam tu, tapi maluuu . So, boyfriend pun dgn rela hati mintak mangkuk besar, ambik Ikan pari masak Asam pedas bagi penuh..HAHAHA. Yang mana, akhirnye saya makan sikit sahaja... sebab, kenyang makan sotong !!! Boyfriend jugak lah yang menghabiskannn...

This is me and my new cheapest handbag ever, RM 25. From Sg wang :)

My crumple shawl from Stylista Hijab 

And, ohhh I'm so like Braided belt these days !

All in all, my boyfriend were having fun playing bowling. Watching Movies and cuddling up..teeheehee :) Love you, Kamil :) This happy moments happened on last 14th. November :)

Random Pictures

I am in the mood of looking again and again and again of our not-so-old pictures, these are few of my favorites :)

Kamil's birthday celebration, July 2010. Batu Feringghi :)

Taken by Eda :)

Belanga restaurant, Empire Shopping Complex Subang Jaya 

The dish

Meatball from a restaurant at Icity

Raya shopping, september, 2010. Sunway Pyramid.

I think i look okay here :)

KFC Extreme Park, Shah Alam

Man in the rain, Icity :)

Macaroons, from Whisk Espresso bar + Bake Shop

Red Velvet cake from the same restaurant.

Me, again :)

Our memories, will make us stronger. You are my greatest adventure partner kamil. You make me curious about how my future will be, when we are together :) I love you as always. 

My goddd !!! Bosan nye cuti semester ni. I feel like a real stupid, every time I woke up in the morning. Thinking how should I spent my next 24 hours by doing nothing. But, at least I ada kawan yg setia nak temankan I buat apa je and makan apa je..hehehe :) Memang cuti kali ni, mengembangkan badan je lah keje kiteorang. Makan, borak - borak , online, tgk tv (paling kurang buat) , and tgk movie kat laptop :) Yelah, dua - dua org pun BF jauh so xde nye nak dating - dating selalu ke apa. Whatttodo kan ? Patient is virtue kate org, rileks sudah :) 

Well, as in my previous post I have a big war with kamil and its brought us from Saturday to Wednesday to settled-up everything. Hahaha.. Actually,  it kinda simple thing je at the very beginning. But you know when two person stay in a long-distance (or normal) relationship and gaduh, obviously we dragged on things not-related to our reasons of fighting at the very beginning, too much :) Yeah, it just like that kan ? Kite gaduh pasal A je, tapi kite nak settlekan tu through handphone lak, memang sampai ke Z lah jawab nye. That's why la, i am trying my best not to get hurt or jealous or whatever (negative feelings) easily, so that i tk de nak degil - degil marah - marah. Yeah, I admit that I have biggest insecurities in my relationship, it is not because I've ever caught him cheating behind me with other women before ( syukur ) , it just that I am a real women who fall in love with him, like I want no one else, but him :) 

Apa pun, now things settled already. How ? He sent me a present on wednesday, all the way from IPOH :) It's a novel and a sorry card :) I don't know whether he read my blog during our war or not, but the sweetest part is the card. Kat dlm kad tu ada sedia tertulis, Please forgive me, and followed by few sentences of romantic-funny words from him. I've been longing to buy this novel for a few months jugak lah. but being me yg super-stingy when it comes to buy reading materials ni, memang asyik tertangguh lah nak beli. Lagi pun, currently I haven't finished reading the "Time traveler's wife" lagi. But now, I need to finish faster la :) 

To kamil, I would like to thank him sooo much for his unconditional love, patient and everything that he gave me. He just stay and be patient ( which is, very difficult if you handling me ), which not every man could have. I know we have our ups and downs, but I found you are the best adventure-partner I have. With you, I am willing to go nowhere where I don't have any idea of with veryy limited cash in hand and with all the disadvantages we both had . I love you !

People say happiness is a choice, and i think happiness is you :)

Wish you were here, LOVE :)

Cuteeeeee sangaaatttt laaaa ....

Rinduuuu sangattt laaaa...

Sorry for the redundant missing, cheezy and cornyy words here in my blog :) I miss him, as if I can't stop missing him twenty four seven. 

Till my next post friends !

Dearest Uncle Kamil / Pak Ngah tersayang ..

Hi,  Pak ngah ! Kenal adik lagi tak ? Busynyyeee Pak Ngah tak dtg melawat adik pun, hari paling istimewa buat adik pun Pak Ngah lupe kan ? Dulu, Pak Ngah selalu bawak adik naik moto jalan - jalan, skrg dh xde :(

Kenapa Pak Ngah ? dik xcute macam dulu lagi ke? Ingat tak ni muka adik time dua hari Mak lahir kan ?

Sekarang, adik dah besar dah. Dah ada gigi, dah pakai tudung :) Dah pandai pun panggil Pak Ngah. Nak dengar tak adik panggil Pak Ngah? Kol la mak adik... :) I miss you Pak Ngah :) 

TAPI...

Bukan adik sorang je rindukan Pak Ngah.... Ada sorang lagi yang rindukan Pak Ngah sangat - sangattt..

HAHAHAHA... ni lah orang nye sile hubungi die secepat mungkin lepas baca entry ni, TQ :)

The day you discovered whom you're born for

Our Conversation Last Week, at Bukit Tinggi while waiting our turn to be drawn by a famous artist there.

Me   : Yang, when we get older nanti, I still want to have vacations like this with you, okay?

Him :  Aah kan? Just me and you, dah besara esok. Anak - anak dah besar.. kan best ? 

                                       

Me  : Ye, masa tu anak - anak kite dah besar and busy ngan life masing - masing.

Him : Ye bik, suh anak - anak kite bagi kite duit makan angin ye?

Me  : *speechless*

Oh yeah, kahwin xlagi planning dah macam - macam :) Funnyyy and happpyyy :) Btw, i reallly like old couples yg still romantik, still holding each other's hands. Seriously, that is real LOVE :) 

Good Relationship ?

It's the pictures of me and Kamil last weekend at Colmar Tropicale, Bukit Tinggi :) A short trip and enjoy sangat even we have only two person in our tour group. There are like almost two hundreds pictures of us during that day and every pictures has story behind. 

We have been dating each other for 43 months-non-stop (*Syukur). I miss him like always and cannot be apart from him, I mean I need to see him once in a week (at least). But since he had to handle northern y-max project we had to compromise each other to-dated-only once in a month ! 

Bosan, sedih and sometimes I rasa macam xtahan. But, come on I know and he knows we are not the only long-distance couple ever exist right? There are people who get married and have to be apart from each other even the wife get pregnant? right? Oh, senang je nak ckp rilek kan ? 

Mind you, I tak kan rasa teruk sgt bile everything went well. Tapi bile problem muncul, obviously I reallllyyy wantt to meet him on that moment to make sure sume nye settle :( But, I don't have that choice :( I have to be okay with "we continue tomorrow.." line while I am at a very climax mood of war :( 

Memang selalu nye sedih sgt bile tengok kawan - kawan senang je nak date and plan to bring their BF to any occasions without failure, to bring theirs on that day . I will never be like that. I nak je bring my BF lepak with my friends and sisters but the facts that we only have time lesser than 24 hrs a month to see each other secara live tu yg menyekat I nak buat semua tu :)

Within that veryyy short time tu la sume nak buat, kalau boleh nak breakfast together, lunch and dinner supper sekali. Not only thattt, I nak memikat hati die, nak cite semua benda yg jadi kat I, jadi kat die, family each others, my college-life, his work-life and whatnot.

Kesian kan ? Tapi, dah 7 bulan we've been going through this long-distance-relationship mcm ni.  Nak ke tak nak, takde pilihan lain lagi. So, terima je lah dengan tak-berapa-nak-redha :(

Okay, i like this picture so much !!!

P dot S : I want morning and noon and nightfall with you. I want your tears, your smiles, your kisses ♥ the smell of your perfume , the taste of your skin, the touch of your breath on my face :) I seriously am tired of missing you , dear boyfriend ♥

Third

I want to be the girl you fall for, FOREVER

when everyone else is falling for you :)